The Heart and the Fist

I connect to this book because my brother is in the Army and my dad used to be in the Navy. What stood out to me is how they were woken up by a mortar. Today I am sharing that I have no idea what it feels like to be in a war, but I have heard stories about those in war and how they can get PTSD from war. It affects them tremendously and their families. The purpose of the book in my opinion, is to show people what it’s like our on the war field and try to get more people to respect those that are fighting for our country. I think that the audience is the citizens’ back home. It seems like they’re talking to everyone that hasn’t experienced what they have.

Tatum

I love Tatum. He ticks me off most of the time but we always get over it and it makes us stronger. He has the world’s handsomest smile and the prettiest eyes ever. His hugs are my favorite and he makes me feel special. He has the cutest laugh and it makes me laugh. He always knows how to piss me off super quickly and then he smiles and makes me laugh which ticks me off even more because I can’t stay mad at him. He takes me to cute dates and takes real good care of me. He’s the best thing to ever happen to me. Sometimes he is funny. He snores as loud as a monster truck. And talks in his sleep. His shows that he watches are dumb but sometimes I’ll watch them anyways. 

Volleyball, old people, and children

I played volleyball for two short years in high school but I loved every second of it. I really love to play it and win. There’s a lot of running and balance you have to have for volleyball but to me it is worth it all. I wish I could go back and play more than I did.

 Old people are sometimes helpless. And I work at a nursing home so I am very familiar with how older people live. I like to help them as much as possible because most of them cannot do it for themselves. They’re so really sweet ones then there are some that are mean. Sometimes those are the fun ones because they are mean to other people but not always mean to you.

 I love children, especially under age 2. They are just so sweet and innocent for the most part and I want to be a pediatric nurse some day because I love kids so much. Babies are my favorite though. They can’t do anything for themselves and its cute how they look up to their parents so much for everything.

Things i am passionate about

1.       Volleyball

2.       Tatum

3.       Cheerleading

4.       Puppies

5.       Simba

6.       Horses

7.       Food

8.       Sleep

9.       Old people

10.   Children

Jesse's point of view

If Tatum doesn’t stop being such a jerk to Tiffany then he is going to lose a very good girl really fast. He picks on her all the time and they constantly argue over dumb things. He just wants to be right about everything and he makes sure that she knows that. I’ve learned my lesson about being mean to my significant other and I wish he would too before she leaves him. He is a very inconsiderate human being and doesn’t appreciate anything that anybody does for him. But he is my son and I love him. That’s why I am trying to get him to understand that he can’t be right about everything and he can’t pick a fight with her all of the time just because he feels like he has something to prove to her. 

Tatum's point of view

I big man me macho. I do no wrong. I wear the pants in this relationship and I set the rules and boundaries. If you don’t abide by them then we will have a serious problem. I’ve never had a girlfriend before so I don’t exactly understand that you are sensitive and have actual feelings because I don’t have any and I never will. I like to kill innocent bugs and push anyone out of my way. Ill ride right on your butt on the road because I don’t give a crap. But if you do it to me then all hell breaks loose. When we fight then you need to admit to me that you’re wrong and fix it. I didn’t do anything wrong so there’s no reason for me to apologize. And I will just let you pay for everything because I am way too stingy with my money and I don’t even like to buy gas but I only do it because I have to. If I didn’t I wouldn’t buy anything. I don’t even offer to take you on a date except once every few months because you bring it up that we haven’t been on one in a while that you haven’t paid for. You pay for everything because I would rather you spend your money on us then me spend it.

Conflict

Tatum and I argue all of the time and sometimes it gets really heated and we get to the point where we are bringing up the past and not even yelling about what we started yelling about. It makes a dent in our relationship to a certain extent. Sometimes he comes to his senses and realizes how big of a jerk his is being and tells me he is sorry after her cools down for a bit. Other times he keeps yelling and making me feel like I’m stupid then makes me cry and that is an even bigger conflict then because now I am even more upset than I already was. This conflict usually will go on for a few hours until I become the bigger person and try to talk it out. If I didn’t do that we would never solve a single thing. 

Stress

I get a lot of stress from the people around me. Sometimes I let the little things bother me and I shouldn’t do that. Most of it comes from my boyfriend because he gets mad over the smallest things and that makes me mad and it stresses me out because I don’t want it to hurt our relationship. Stress is very bad for your health and your overall well-being. It can give you a heart attack if you have too much of it for too long. I also think that you can control a little bit about how much you let things get to you that may cause stress. 

Pigeon: Impossible

I saw a man eating a bagel on the bench. I was hungry so I flew over next to him. I eyed that bagel like I was starving to death. He tossed me a piece but it went over my head and I attacked him for that. Then he threw it again and I went for it and got caught in a box with a ton of buttons. I started pecking at those buttons just to find out that it could shoot things and fly. I took complete advantage of that and flew around shooting things and people. With smoke from fire filling the air, I noticed the man holding the bagel. I stopped what I was doing and looked at him in hope. As he walked towards me faster, I jumped back in the box, threatening to shoot him. Then he suddenly hit me out of the way and the bagel flew onto the big red button. Suddenly, a rocket emerged and took off. The man took after the rocket, still holding the bagel in the box. I knew he had it, and I wanted it. So I flew after him and sat on the box as he was trying to shoot down the rocket. Then suddenly out comes the bagel and I flew down chasing it. I caught it and started to eat it on the side walk. The man came back down to the ground, looked at me, put on his shades, and walked away. I continued to eat the bagel when I heard something falling from the sky. I looked up with no time to move from the giant rocket that was falling right for me. And then everything went black.

Happiness

I am usually a happy person. Things that make me happy include: puppies, kittens, food, sleep, money, and Tatum. Puppies and kittens are just so adorable. Food makes everything better. Sleep makes me less crabby which makes me happy. Money lets me buy things I want which makes me happy, even just for a little bit. And last but not least, Tatum makes me happy. The happiest I have ever been. Other times he really ticks me off and is super irritating. But he’s cute so it makes up for it. Also, being warm makes me happy. I get really cranky when I am cold because I absolutely hate being cold. 

Lessons Learned

I have learned that the people who are closest to you are the ones that hurt you the most. My mom for example, she seems like she could care less about what happens to me financially. She started me out at 18 with over $2,000 in debt. And hardly talks to me now. Another example is Tatum. His words hurt me and his actions sometimes do as well. He tells me all the time that I am stupid and when we are wrestling he doesn’t know his own strength. But I have also learned that there is no one else I would rather be with. I have learned that true love does exist and it doesn’t always take a long time to find it. I have learned that your best friend can turn out to be someone you don’t even know but thought you did. Also that someone else’s parents can be better parents to you than your own.

Invisible

If I were to find that I was invisible then I would automatically start playing pranks on people. Especially Tatum. I would make him tell me things otherwise I would like trip him and beat him up with my words of threatening. I would also mess with other people. I would pull their hair and trip them and with people that I don’t like I would stand in front of them so that they would run into me and look stupid. To the girls that take selfies in the hallway I would smack their phones right out of their hands and make them scared. I think that it would be hilarious. I would be a mean invisible person. Even more than I am now. I would like to be invisible at some points but I think it would also be bad because Tatum couldn’t see me and that would be dumb. If I could make myself invisible whenever I wanted to and turn visible again then I would have it made. I hope that would include being able to walk through walls. 

If i was a crayon i would be Sassy Silver

I feel like this color would represent me very well because I am a very sassy person and I love it. I like to be sarcastic and tell people what I think and not really care about the outcome. Which I should because it could get me into trouble someday but it hasn’t really yet. Being sassy is just who I am. When someone says something dumb I feel like I have to reply with something sassy because their being dumb. And when Tatum is a jerk I feel like I have to let him know it and I do that by being really sassy to him because he deserves every single bit of it. I picked Silver because it starts with the same letter as sassy does.

Eat, sleep, and eat again.

Eating is a necessary thing to stay alive. And so is sleep. So put them together and you have the perfect life. Eating and sleeping are my two favorite things to do. You just can’t go wrong with it. When you eat a lot, you get tired so then you sleep. When you sleep a lot you get hungry, so then you eat. It’s a never ending cycle. But it’s a beautiful cycle. Sleeping is also necessary to stay alive. Without it your body will shut down because it’s running all of the time and never gets any rest. So if you don’t eat and sleep you will die. That’s why my slogan is a very good and reasonable slogan. I think that everyone should follow this slogan because it is good for you.

I believe in God

How else would everything be the way that it is today? It didn’t just appear. People couldn’t have made it if there weren’t any people on the earth yet. Animals couldn’t have made it because animals don’t have that ability. How could everything work the way that it does now? Our bodies are amazing inside and out. The way that they work and function is baffling. No man could think that through the way God created us to be. God gave us the knowledge of how to create more things out of what we already have. He gave us light, darkness, animals, people, plants, food, etc. Everything that we have today in some way or another came from Him. Without Him none of us would be typing right now. We wouldn’t even be here. This world is amazing. And He has created every single bit of it. I have confidence of that. Faith of that. And the evidence is this entire universe. It didn’t just happen from nothing. Something had to be there if God didn’t make it. But there was nothing there. Not a single thing. So God changed that for us. So that we could come down to earth and learn of Him and choose our path. He gives us the right to choose. He would never take that away.

I believe

I believe

In God

Tatum will get over it soon

In tipping

Protein shakes don’t work

I will be able to stay until September

I will find another place soon

I can take Cruzer

Upgrade my vehicle

Never live paycheck to paycheck

Gas prices will reach $5

I will get in my first wreck some day

What if i had lots of land?

If I had lots of land then I would buy all the horses that I wanted and that would probably be one of every kind ever. Also, I would let Tatum get his hunting dogs and whatever else he wanted. We could hunt on our own property and never have to use other people’s land. I know that would mean us probably eating deer meat every day but that would be perfectly fine with me. I would also try squirrel and rabbit maybe I don’t know yet. I would make my own business on part of our land where I could let children come ride the horses for $10 for however long they wanted to. I would mainly do it for special needs children that don’t get to interact with animals very often. Not only would it make them happy, but it would make me happy too. Our children would grow up on lots of land and that would teach them lots of responsibility which would be very good for them. Hopefully it would have some hills and not all be flat land. I want some hills in there. It would be better as mountains but since there’s no mountains in Missouri, that’s not going to happen. I hope this happens someday. When we’re rich.

What if dogs talked?

If dogs talked then most people would be in so much trouble with their parents. I know I would be. My dog’s name is Wiggles and I know her so well that I know that if she could talk that she would be so sassy and have such an attitude towards everything. But it would also be so much harder to do something you’re not supposed to in front of her because she would most likely blab her big mouth to my parents. But if she did that then I would get her in trouble by telling my dad that she’s been on the couch that day and on my bed and she dug up the yard. He would be ticked. But then we would be even. I love Wiggles to death but if she told on me I wouldn’t ever trust her again and I wouldn’t take her for rides anymore. I would pretend like I’m going to drop her off on the side of the road so that she would stop being a little brat. I would win that battle. And on days that she was really nice to me and maybe complimented my outfit or something, I would buy her so hamburgers from McDonald’s because she loves those. That would be her reward.

What if i could teleport?

                If I could teleport that would make my life so much simpler. Like I would never have to get up and walk or move things by myself I could just sit there and with my fingers. I could make myself go anywhere at any time and I could scare the heck out of people by just appearing right beside them when they least expect it. I would do that all of the time. Just pop up out of nowhere. But only I could do it. Nobody else would be as cool as me. I would be feared by everyone because if I didn’t like someone I could just pop up next to them and punch them in the face and then all of a sudden I could be in Russia. But I wouldn’t tell people that I could teleport because then they would know it was me and I would probably get arrested at some point. But this way I have an alibi. Like no I didn’t rob that store I was on vacation in Hawaii. The perfect alibi. I would never get caught. I would only tell a select few people about my awesome powers. One would be Tatum, I trust him not to tell anybody. If he did I would just teleport him off to Pakistan. Another would probably be Megan. Cause then I could just stop by her college to say hey every once in a while. And I might end up telling Emily because she’s my friend and I don’t want to lie to her. I wouldn’t tell my parents because then they would always be wanting me to do stuff for them. Especially my mom. One last person that I would tell would be my brother. He’s my favorite family member and I trust him a lot. He would be so jealous though. How awesome would it be if I could teleport? Such a score. 

What If...

The world was a square

People walked on 4 legs and animals on 2

I knew everything

College didn’t exist

I was a billionaire

Money grew on trees

Moving out was free

Didn’t have to have insurance

There were no numbers after 10

Everyone spoke the same language

Gas was free

You could move out at 16

I could teleport

Technology didn’t exist

Everything was green

Wearing clothes was weird

Could travel anywhere anytime

Dogs talked

Drinking

Drinking is a compensation thing. People drink to compensate for unhappiness, anger, happiness, or loneliness. People may handle being drunk in different ways though. Some may be very mean drinkers. Meaning that they are mean to others when they are drunk. Maybe they get into fights or yell or just make a fool out of themselves. Others may be happy drinkers that are overly-happy when drunk. They may always be laughing or smiling or talking super loudly. They aren’t mean to others they just want some attention. And then there are the select few that have no noticeable attitude when they are drunk. They may be quiet and sit in the corner by themselves or with others. They most likely will not be loud or mean or make a complete fool of themselves. Drinking and being an alcoholic are two different things. Drinking is maybe on occasion or everyday just not drinking to get drunk. Alcoholic is drinking to get drunk to take away some type of feelings that certain person is having.  Being addicted to a substance of any kind is a very dangerous thing. Not only could it hurt you, but also your friends and family. It might force them away from you and your relationship could become nonexistent. Then you are left with just yourself, and how can you count on yourself when you’re always drunk? Be smart, do drink. Not even for fun. Every now and then is okay as long as you don’t get carried away with it and make it become a daily thing. Soon you won’t be able to get through the day without a drink.

Death

Death can happen anytime, anywhere, to anyone, with no warning. You never know if it is going to happen to you tomorrow, or the next day, or how it will happen. You could wake up tomorrow and your sister not be breathing. Or your sister could wake up tomorrow and you not be breathing. You can’t bring dead people back to life. Not only do people die, but animals do too. Your childhood pet could die before you get home today. There’s absolutely not a thing that you can do about it. Plants die too but that’s not as much of a tragedy as people and pets are in my opinion. A couple years back, my Uncle Brian passed away from a morphine overdose. He had been an alcoholic and wasn’t much in my life. But you still feel hurt when someone you love or know passes away. It’s kind of an uncontrollable feeling. Sometimes you may feel sad, lonely, depressed, mad, or if you’re demented, you may feel happy that someone died. Either way you get some type of emotion out of a death. People can deal with it in all sorts of ways. They may harm themselves or others because they feel that it is their fault that the certain person passed away. Some may completely shut the world out for an extended period of time. Others may act like nothing is wrong and everything is going to be okay.  

Fear

Fear is something I have a lot of. I fear jumping bugs, mainly crickets, semi-trucks, trains, walking under bridges, heights, and kittens. Crickets are ridiculously scary. Like they just come out of nowhere and jump on you whenever they feel like it. You have no say in that part of your life and it leaves you vulnerable. Semi-trucks are just too big to even be on the road. I saw the movie Joy Ride and ever since then I can’t stand those massive vehicles. Especially when Tatum drives super close to them because he knows it scares the heck out of me and thinks it’s funny but it isn’t funny at all. The movie Unstoppable made me scared of trains. There’s just this crazy train that’s on the loose and nobody can stop it so it goes through all these towns and kills people and blows stuff up. Now every time I see a train I think automatically that one of the box things is going to fly off and kill me while I’m waiting for it to get out of my way. My dad once stopped in the middle of the tracks and made me cry. That was like 2 years ago. He thought it was hilarious but obviously I didn’t. When I walk under bridges I can hear the traffic above me and it makes me think that I’m in the movie Final Destination and the bridge is going to collapse and crush me. So therefore, I don’t do it. Heights give me a heart attack. Like why do some people not get scared to look down hundreds of feet and see their death waiting to happen? My heart flutters when I look over a balcony or something like that. And last but not least, kittens. It’s weird because I’m not scared of cats, just kittens. They pounce at you and bite your feet and attack you when you least expect it. Who would want such a monster in their house? 

Hurting my knee

On April 20^th, 2014 I wrecked my four wheeler. I thought it was a good idea to do doughnuts on the dry dirt. Apparently I was wrong. I was completing my last doughnut, and I suddenly realized that I had messed up. I was going way too fast on the dirt and flew off and flipped the four wheeler in the process. Three months later, on July 7^th, I had surgery because I had torn my ACL and meniscus. After my surgery for the first week, I lost 12 pounds because I was laid up in bed the whole time and didn’t eat very much. That weekend I had a 103 degree fever and had to go to the emergency room. I was very dizzy and sweating but cold and I had to crutch my way to the hospital door but I almost passed out so a lady came running out with a wheelchair for me. Turns out I had a severe UTI and the surgery made it noticeable. After a day in the hospital I returned home and stayed in bed for another week or so. I couldn’t get in and out of the shower by myself and I couldn’t carry anything. I felt useless. Finally I got tired of it, and I found a way to get in and out of the shower without my mom’s help. Also, I would scoot my plate of food down the hallway with my good foot all the way to my room so I didn’t have to ask for help. Progressively I got better and got to where I could stand up on my foot and walk a little bit more. I didn’t have to use a shower chair any longer and I could carry my own food with my hands at last. I think that I learned my lesson about doing doughnuts on the dry dirt, or at all. Never again will I be so stupid. I probably won’t even drive as fast if I do it again.

I was very dizzy and sweating but cold and I had to crutch my way to the hospital door but I almost passed out so a lady came running out with a wheelchair for me.

Since I had almost passed out while crutching to the door, this random woman came outside with a wheelchair for me to sit in so that I wouldn’t have to crutch any longer. So I got into the waiting room and I was freezing cold but I was sweating at the same time so I was so confused at what was happening in my life and I was scared and thought I was going to dry. But I didn’t die because I am here writing this right now obviously. So that waiting room time was for like an hour and a half then I finally went back and they had to give me an I.V. which hurt like crazy. And I had to have 3 full bags of liquid antibiotics in my I.V. I got there around 9 at night and left the next day around 2 in the afternoon. So I guess I wasn’t there for a full day, just 17 hours. Which felt like it was so much longer because I was there by myself from 3 am until 22pm. My mom was the only one that went with me. I guess nobody else cared, just kidding I don’t even care. But they told me that I was also dehydrated with a UTI so I needed to go home and drink like a gallon of water each day. I still don’t do that so I could possibly go back into the hospital.